I was so looking forward to work today. NOT looking forward to my boss making me cry. I had emailed her when I found out about my back to give her a heads up about what was going on. She called me into her office today. If I can't lift 50lbs, I can't work. *cue tears* We talked about it quite a bit and decided that if I can avoid lifting and it doesn't hamper my work, that we will keep hush hush about it. I need to work. Working helps distract me. It lets me care about other people's problems instead of my own. Not to mention in 1 week, Josh will be moving out and I will be living alone (with the pups). I can't imagine sitting around here all that time. I'm supposed to work full time for a while and not only do I need that money, but I need that for passing time. F*** syrinxes!
Also, I want a second opinion. I want to talk to a specialist. I want a more definite answer for all of this crap. I want specific guidelines as to what I can and can not do. I want a more set look as to what my future might hold. I'm going to try and set up an appointment at the Chiari Center in Milwaukee. (Thanks Kelly for finding this.) Besides should I end up needing surgery, this is where I would probably go. I want a second opinion so I can maybe set my mind at ease a little more.... or at least have a better grip on this.
My symptoms are more persistent. Last month they were once a week. Right now they are hitting rapid fire every other day. Not cool. I hope it isn't syrinxes elongating. I like being able to walk, thank you.
I hate this feeling. Not to mention family stress and emotional crappiness. Life enjoys crapping on me a lot.
You're right, it sucks. But we don't know what's going to happen. Stay strong!
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