I need to lose weight. Simple fact. I'm pushing the envelope of my BMI. I have a wedding coming up. I want to look and feel good. Right now I don't. I'm so stressed lately and am craving my comfort foods, none of which are very healthy. So 1) I eat like shit. And 2) I'm a slug. With everything going on I have no motivation to exercise. Josh has been playing basketball and riding the bike. He is seeing results, especially in his lung function. This is pushing him to keep working out and being active. I can't do what I want to do most: run. I cried when I was watching The Biggest Loser last night. There is a man on that show who weighs 358lbs and he ran the 5k. I would give anything to be okay to run like that. Running was my big stress reliever in the past, but it was taken away from me. According to the SM forums, my safest exercises are walking and swimming. I'm not supposed to do sit-ups, or push-ups, or running/jogging, or bending (ruling out a lot of yoga).
Walking and swimming.
I looked into water exercise programs. The CP Center offers a lot of classes that I could take. What I would really like to do is get a gym membership. I want to hire a trainer to meet with me once a week or once every other week. If they know what my limitations are, then they can help me find exercises I can actually do.
What I should be doing right now is taking the dogs for a walk. Or writing my paper. Or studying for my exam. Maybe I'll get motivated to do any of those... maybe not.
I have to figure out how to get the mindset to take control of my life again. I know it's what I have to do, I just don't know how to.
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